TOP Gear star Paddy McGuinness has opened up about being clinically depressed.
The 49-year-old TV host said her mental health took a turn for the worse, she struggled to go to work and began to “resent” her job.
Paddy strongly emphasized the importance of speaking out after seeing three therapists after his ex Christine discovered signs of depression in him.
Paddy said on Monday’s Miles podcast, “My experience was kind of like depression, I was clinically diagnosed with depression, but I didn’t realize it.
“You can go as low as you can, and the people around you will tell you that.
“So Christine and some of my family would say something if I was okay and I would be like, ‘Why do they always ask me that?
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“But obviously you can’t see it yourself. It’s in your head. It’s not like people will find it and limp you can find it.”
The TV star said he would quickly become irritable and throw tantrums.
“I think there were days when I felt like myself because the work I was doing was public facing,” Paddy said.
“I started to get sick of making people laugh in front of a lot of people because I was like, ‘You guys are fine, but I’m going home like this.
“I’ve never been that pissed off person, but sometimes I feel myself getting caught up in certain situations faster, and I figured it wasn’t me.
“I didn’t mean to throw a cup against a bloody wall and scream, but I could feel the anger right away. I shouldn’t have felt it.”
Paddy said the key moment when everything turned around for him was when he went to therapy.
“I went to see a therapist and that didn’t work at all. I went to see another therapist and he had garbage in my eyes and at that point I had given up.” Paddy said.
“That’s where I found out what happened and got in touch with me and said give me another chance. This is the one.”
“I think of therapy like buying shoes – it’s about not giving it up, and I pretty much did.
“Try a treatment and if it doesn’t work, it doesn’t mean all treatments don’t work. Keep going until you find that one. You might get bloody six times, but it’s worth it.” I have.”
Paddy says she now messages her therapist every few months to check in.
“I still see this guy. Not on a regular basis, but I saw him every week because it was necessary at the time,” he added.
“He said I was clinically depressed. I was like, ‘I am.’ I felt at ease immediately. Then he can work on it and get over it. It’s been a really long process. it was for me. I feel like I was with Tyson Fury. ”
