Halle Bailey opens up about her experience with postpartum depression.
The actress, who quietly welcomed her son last year, recently posted a video to her Snapchat, shared to Instagram on Tuesday, April 16, in which she opened up about her battle with the disease. Bailey began by saying that she was “triggered” by some comments she saw about her family on social media.
After first sharing how much she loves her “perfect” son Halo, Bailey went on to talk about her postpartum journey as a new mom.
“I have severe postpartum problems. [depression]I don’t know if there are any new moms out there who can relate, but this is really bad and it’s hard for me because if I’m away from my baby for more than 30 minutes at a time, he starts to freak out. Outside. ”
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Bailey went on to say that she knows her boyfriend, DDG, is the “best dad in the world” and has continued to support her ever since her struggles began.
“Halo is a miracle. He’s perfect. He’s beautiful. When I look at him, I cry because of how special he is. The only hard thing for me is feeling normal in my body. That’s it.” little mermaid the actress said.
“I feel like a completely different person. When I look in the mirror, it feels like I have a whole new body. I don’t even know who I am.”
She explained that postpartum depression is difficult to deal with, especially because she feels there is a stigma against talking about depression in general.
“Before I had my kids, hearing people talk about postpartum was like going in one ear and going out the other, wondering how serious it really was. I didn’t understand,” Bailey said. “When I’m experiencing it right now, it feels like I’m swimming in an ocean like the biggest waves I’ve ever felt. I’m trying not to drown. And I’m trying to find air. Trying to surface.”
Ms Bailey went on to say she wanted to emphasize that her depression had “nothing to do” with her son.
“It has nothing to do with my baby. It has everything to do with me and who I am now,” Bailey said. “I think I just got triggered today, especially [since] It’s not a good idea to use social media after giving birth. But today I was really inspired. I was especially inspired by what was being said about me, my family, and my loved ones. What I love. ”
She concluded by sharing a reminder that just because you’re in the public eye doesn’t mean you can’t ignore the words people write on the internet.
“Even if you look up to certain people and think they’re famous and seem to have it all together, you don’t know what other people are going through, especially people who literally just had a baby. You never know,” Bailey said.
