A TikToker who claims to have been diagnosed with antisocial personality disorder (ASPD) has opened up about why it’s “fun” to feel certain emotions that others don’t.
Although you won’t be specifically diagnosed with “sociopathy,” if you exhibit certain behaviors associated with it, you may be diagnosed with antisocial personality disorder (ASPD).
And the TikToker, who claims to have been “professionally diagnosed with ASPD and narcissistic personality disorder” and calls himself a “narcissistic sociopath,” explains what it’s like to live with the condition. He uses his platform to raise awareness about things.
TikTokers raise awareness of being ‘narcissistic sociopaths’ (TikTok/ @dammitdelta)
What exactly is psychopathy?
National Library of Medicine I will explain Psychopathy is “a neuropsychiatric disorder characterized by a lack of emotional reactivity, lack of empathy, and impaired behavioral control, commonly resulting in persistent antisocial deviance and criminal behavior.”
and on video Posted TikToker Delta (who goes by @dammitdelta on the platform) wrote on his page earlier this month that he was the first to “realize that most people don’t actually like feeling emotions like hate and anger.” He explains that it was when he was 26 years old.
“I knew some people didn’t like these feelings,” she continues. “But I really didn’t know that most people don’t like feeling those things.”
Delta is having fun with it.
Realizing that this was “not normal,” she decided to dig deeper into why this was normal.
Many of Delta’s emotions feel “dulled” (TikTok/ @dammitdelta)
“Hateful emotions are intense and fun.”
“In my case, ASPD blocks and dulls many emotions. I lack certain emotions such as empathy and remorse, and many other emotions are very blunted. .
“That being said, I think I enjoy feelings of hatred and anger because they feel intense and real. Many of my other emotions pass very quickly. or become very dull, so you don’t necessarily feel it.” They’re more superficial.
“It brings a sense of stimulation and joy when I usually feel empty.”
And the inability to feel this emotion strongly could have even more serious consequences for Delta.
She reveals, “I never realized how much it had slowed down until now.” [her] Emotions lead to [her] They may “act recklessly” or even “seek out emotions such as hatred and anger,” such as seeking “fights with others.”
“Having no emotions” is a stereotype.
The emotion she feels “strongest” is anger, and because she has “no problem feeling angry,” this emotion gives her far more “stimulation” than other emotions. , can feel “real and human” to her. ‘.
Delta clarifies that when we talk about anger, we are referring to “high levels” or “anger.”
“The low-level anger and frustration I feel every day is actually kind of gross,” she added.
The TikToker ultimately rejected the stereotype that she was “emotionless” and instead explained that she struggles with “emotional regulation” and has a “limited” emotional range. Masu.
“I like the power behind emotions such as hatred, so to most people hate and anger seem like things that cause pain and don’t feel good, but those emotions are comforting to me. I like to feel them and I look for them.”
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