A woman who said she had been diagnosed as a psychopath described standard emotions that she did not feel.
She has previously spoken about a morbid interest she had as a child.
On TikTok, it is called @Victhepath.
She explains that she has been diagnosed with antisocial personality disorder (ASPD) and wants to raise awareness of it, and has created a plethora of videos explaining the world from her perspective.
Vic said he calls himself a psychopath, although he doesn’t have a formal diagnosis. Because she “recognizes the characteristics of a psychopath better than I recognize the characteristics of a sociopath.”
One of her most popular videos was of her experiencing some emotions that most of us never feel.
She said she did feel a lot of emotion, but it was “repressed” compared to others. (TikTok/@victhepath)
She started by emphasizing that there were many emotions she actually felt, even if they were “muted,” and then went on to talk about the emotions she didn’t feel.
“When I think about these emotions, I feel like my brain is going through a blender. I feel like I can’t conceptualize it,” she explained.
“It’s like asking me to think of a color that doesn’t exist. I don’t know how to refer to it because I’ve never experienced that color. That’s impossible.
“Emotions that I don’t feel at all include empathy, love, regret, and anxiety.”
She then told her followers that she had “a complete misunderstanding of what empathy is” because she had never experienced it.
The TikToker added that she doesn’t feel love for anyone, “not my friends, not my family, not my boyfriend,” and said, “The concept of love was so foreign to me that I couldn’t understand it.”
Regret is a more understandable emotion because you can understand what someone is saying when they talk about regret, but “I can’t feel it,” she said.
She felt it was consistent with a lack of anxiety, saying, “I feel like regret and anxiety go together, but it also creates anxiety, so it doesn’t make sense to me that people talk about it.”
“I think I understand what people mean when they say, ‘Oh, my thoughts are working against me,’ or ‘I’m scared to do this,’ but if you actually experience it, I’ve never done it.
“So I’m not sure if my concept is correct.”
Naturally, this video further aroused the curiosity of her many followers, with people asking why she would look for a lover if she does not feel love.
In another video, she said she was confused by the question because she thought, “Obviously you can enjoy something without liking it.”
Almost all relationships “start with two people enjoying each other and then grow into love,” she says, adding that if you “just take that last step of falling in love with each other out of the equation,” the relationship won’t be that way. It works “exactly the same” as stated.
